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December 13, 2007

princess day

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emmanual the fabulous (no joke when i say fabulous, have you ever seen moi with a bad hair day ;) set up a princess day as soon as he found out about the diagnosis. does she look hot hot hot or what what what? grrrr!

today was (is) an amazingly wonderful day. first time in awhile angel woke up in the morning without a gasp of urgency, as if waking up from a nightmare (she emulated this look of terror the other day, and i still can’t get it out of my mind). she ate some cereal and a glass of my juice concoction (opening up a juice bar has crossed my mind once or ten times) for breakfast, and then a solid morning-early afternoon of productivity with my work. i’m now working primarily in the kitchen to be closer to angel. it comforts me, as it does her. and that i’m only 10 paces away from grabbing her face soap or wash cloth after she forgets to bring it into the shower with her. (this used to drive me nuts, but heck, now i can tolerate just about everything).
at 2 o’clock angel had her ‘princess’ day with emmanual. we’ve been hooked on him ever since susan introduced us all. he was excited to experiment with some vegetable dye on her, but he was lacking a piece of equipment, the big sit down hair dryer contraption. but as you can see in the picture, she is looking hot damn without it!

during this, i was thinking a lot of amber who was undergoing a colonoscopy of her own. a procedure that was pressed upon by dr malpass, angel’s oncologist. the immediate huber family does not have a case of cancer, so the bowman side seems to be the culprit. but who am i to blame? nice going leroy ;) i was naturally concerned when i heard three polyps were discovered and removed successfully. it doesn’t seem right that a healthy 26 yr old female would have any at all. angel tells me that through her own sacrifice, amber is able to live a healthier life. as adults, they have been very close, but when the c word was thrown in the mix, the closeness and their love for each other multiplied exponentially. i haven’t talked with amber yet, but her doctor said she will have regular check ups every five years. it seems it should be more often, but who am i to say, my wife only has cancer. xoxo

angel and lan are chatting away equally in lengthy conversation, and feels exactly like old times (minus the sound of beer bottles clinking away, and the countdown to how few beers remain in the fridge) and this makes me feel really good that she is having fun, lan is having fun, and that i am blogging this nonsense. i’ve explained this to toni and lan before, but when they are here with us, i feel like i can drift away and not worry about all this. that i can feel like everything is normal again. but not that i am repressing or hiding either. that sounds confusing, but it makes sense to me. it’s just a really good feeling.

on heavy days, i will check back to this entry and take in this perfect day once again.

Posted on December 13, 2007 at 5:40:00 PM by angel & ben ( princess day, 0 comments)